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I've been thinking about this post for awhile. I know I said in my last post that it would probably be my last but the writer in me says otherwise. I struggle with my writing. There is a huge part of me that wants to write all the time but I'm so depressed much of […]

I've been procrastinating writing this blog. I've had a good bit going on. I have changed jobs since my last post. I took a major risk and quit the at home job to try and see if I could get back into manufacturing that I love. I found one job right away and loved it, […]

When I first heard this saying I was living with my best friend at the time. He found this little button when he was out one day and brought it home to me. He said that he immediately thought of me when he saw it. I have since seen it everywhere. Its an expression adopted […]

I talk about love a lot. It's the main thing people with BPD tend to do. It's the main thing we are focused on. We search day in and day out for someone, anyone to love us. My best friend says I have the emotions for 10 women. All the romantic, lovey dovey emotions. My […]

I am a very emotionally driven person I must say. I can't tell you if that is a BPD thing or just a Bonnie thing. Sometimes, it can lead into trouble for me. I call it a "mother hen" mentality, my therapist would say it's a symptom of my BPD. When someone I care about […]

It's been a little while, I know. I have too many things that I want to do and not enough time or motivation to do them in. My life is pretty much the same as it has been. I'm still on my weight loss journey to help my knees. Mainly just the right knee now […]

I feel pretty today. That's not something I feel on a regular basis, but today I feel pretty. I am down 2 more pounds which has allowed me to fit into my favorite pair of bell-buttomish jeans.They are a light blue in color and make me feel like me. The Stevie Nicks is my spirit […]

I'm feeling good today. I won't say that is rare for me, because most days I am pretty happy. I know my last few posts have not been happy, but today I am feeling good. Friday I got to go to North Carolina to see one of my favorite writers (James Patterson) speak and get […]

Okay, so sometimes I think entirely too much. I know this about myself. It's one of the things I hate about myself. I know some or all of you are thinking that this chick is crazy. Well yes, yes I am. And this is good that you read all this craziness. I mean it's not […]

I haven't written in awhile. I've been really depressed lately. I should be happy. Why am I not happy? It doesn't make sense for me not to be so. I'm tired all the time and I feel like crying. I just can't get out of this funk I am in. I was talking to my […]